The Sting

I have really enjoyed our guest writers and their contributions so far and I can't wait for the others. And thanks to OReader for setting this all up.

Obviously I need to jump in real quick so we can recap the infamous "sting" that Bill performed yesterday on the campus of the University of Montana.  Out of all the crazy claims he makes against his "haters", there is one particular area of vulnerability that Sean Boushie had, and that is in his employment through the government at the U of M.  What he does on government time is open to the public just like any other government official.  Up until this point, Boushie has been able to slide by based solely on the utter and complete incompetence of Bill.  But yesterday, Bill may have finally barked up the right tree (even though he is a skunk).

Windsor went to the extraordinary length of fabricating, yes he Bill fabricated something, a made up announcement of something "big" involving Sean.  He then goes to the parking lot of the building that he says Sean works at, turns on his camera and starts filming the truck, he says, belongs to Sean.  Bill thinks that this is proof that Sean is in the building and at work.  So he films for almost an hour of dead air time as he films lots of people whom he doesn't have consent from, and then he says he got his big hit....an email response from Sean.  Bill then calls the UM PD....they take his report and give him the "don't call us, we will call you" treatment.  As time goes by and it becomes clear to bill that they are not coming, he then calls the Missoula PD who quickly patch him back to the UM PD once he tells them where he is.  The UM PD sends an car out there to try and shut him up and as they roll up they see a crazy old man out filming the building.

Now we finally have an interesting moment...and guess what....Bill doesn't film and we can barely hear what happens.  But from what you can hear, its clear that the officer asked Bill what he was doing.  Windsor whined about all the things he says Sean did to him.  Bill goes on and on about how he fears for his life and how he must wear the bullet proof vest.  The officer then asks the logical question of why would anyone who fears someone that much actually go to that person's place of employment and start filming their vehicle? Windsor then lies directly to the officer's face and says that Boushie cost him his 42 year marriage and he is dead set on seeing him arrested.  Bill then has to bring up his new favorite topic of glory holes and the officer quickly shuts the creepy sexual deviant with a camera down.

The UM PD tells Bill that they may not have jurisdiction (possibly assuming that Sean might have emailed it from his personal phone device) but Bill....knowing their job better than they, points out that they are wrong. In the end, they tell him they wont be making any arrests today and that they will take his information and look in to it.  This, of course, equals a huge victory for Bill and he celebrated with his "full strength" pepsi when he got back to the hotel.  He shouted out from the rooftops to his 15 remaining followers that they had finally taken their country back.  This was it, the culmination of all those miles, hours, pie, rv's, lemmings, talkshoe shows, congressional testimonies, his entire family and home.....it all ends with this.  He called the police, and they responded and took his report.  What a victory.

I think, in the end, this will not result in any kind of criminal charges.  But Sean could be in trouble with his employer.  At some point this becomes an annoyance to them and they may feel its best to extricate the University from this school yard pissing match.

Is it all just Grandiose Delusions of a Narcissist Man Named William M Windsor?

Today's lesson comes to you from the letter N. 

Thanks, Ninja!

A true Narcissist needs to feed their narcissistic tendencies. It's been called, “Narcissistic Supply Sources” or “NSS's.” They look for people to give them compliments, or accolades by whatever means necessary. They crave the attention, it feeds them, propels them, and their constant need for this attention is relentless.

Charlotte X “Our prayers are with you.”

Janet X “We love you Bill...”

William X “GOD BLESS YOU BILL.

Milia X “Bill you are great, sending my love to you.”

But what happens when this supply is cut off? They are propelled into a narcissistic crisis. The need to feed becomes much like an addict looking for a fix, resulting in a the Grandiosity Gap between the fantasies of the Narcissist and reality. This triggers defensive actions, so they can stabilize themselves, with the least amount of emotional liability. He must protect his ego.

”Bill Windsor has now lost almost everything.”

”According to one report, there may have been a plot to have me killed.”

”My family gave me an ultimatum, Stop your efforts with Lawless America or lose your family. I told them I would not allow my family to tell me what I can and can not choose to do.”

One action is to flee the scene of his failures, and thus create an alibi for potential future failures to reduce his egotistic pain. He must transform his life into some magnificent work of art. The narcissist is much like an actor, who's creation is his life. He will adapt to any scene, as long as he has an audience, and he can change and adapt to any audience as necessary to maintain NSS's. The world is a stage to the Narcissist.

”I am mentally making plans to relocate away from Georgia...”

”When I left Georgia two weeks ago, I ceased to be a resident. I am relocating to Texas. Central North Texan to be precise.”

”I am now officially a resident of South Dakota.”

They don't like to work with others because it sets the stage for failure, pain, abandonment and self destruction. To a Narcissist it's really all about self-preservation tactics. They believe they are so unique, and their uniqueness is enough to establish their position. They believe they are entitled to special treatment, in every area of life, without actually creating or achieving anything.

”I am doing this essentially all by myself. No one is traveling with me.”

A partial list of roles or characteristics would include

• Crook, dangerous, unpredictable, verbally violent, deterring;
• Businessman, rich, well connected, powerful;
• Genius, innovator, encyclopaedic;
• Revolutionary, reformer, non-conformist, rebellious;
• Asexual, monkish, pervert;
• Author, intellectual, bohemian, artist;
• Family man, father, sage, experienced, stable, and authoritative;
• Charming, childish, honest, open, innocent, vulnerable, requires assistance and support.
  
  

Bill Windsor makes plans in case he is killed or disappears while in Montana.

William M Windsor targeted for assassination by U.S. Government

William M Windsor is a reasonably normal 63-year-old husband, father and grandfather.

William Michael Windsor is an American with a business and publishing background. He is chairman and chief executive officer of “The Windsor Companies”.

Lawless America Revolution show with William M Windsor.”

Narcissists deceive everyone around them in more ways than one. It's because they know how to adapt, and use the people around them for their 'NSS feedings.' If they don't get what they need, they create a new stage.

”I Bill Windsor, write this online publication, and I am producing a documentary film and pilot for a proposted weekely t.v. series...I am a card carrying member of the press. I have been a magazine publisher for most of my career. I began my media work in high school. I have been a radio and TV announcer. I have been a radio news reporter. I formerly hosted a weekly TV news show. For the last several years, I have published online and I have produced online radio and TV shows..."

”William M Windsor candidate for Chief Magistrate Judge of Cobb County Georgia, filed criminal charges against 25 Judges who are members of the Judicial Counsel of Georgia.”

The loss of control of their Grandiosity gap turns everything they used to attract the NSS's, against them. What once was projected as benign power, is transformed into rage and humiliation directed at others or groups. What once was wealth, is transformed into overspending, frivolous ventures, or just carelessness. Publicity is sought through lies and fantasies. The Narcissist reacts in numerous ways to the NSS's which no longer feed the need. They are no longer functional to him. To help change this downward spiral he has to use his “Grandiosity Compensation.” It is a vicious cycle in trying to adjust the two. The need is for a more Grandiose Fantasy to lure in new NSS's.

”Bill Windsor files criminal charges against 37 cyberstalkers”.

”William M Windsor of Lawless America has requested correction and retractions to defamation, libel and slander.”

”Justice of the Peace Jim Bailey is corrupt and a criminal”

"Judge Duffy is the most responsible for my failed marriage"

To achieve the superiority fill of the narcissist, he must degrade the NSS and belittle them. They are the polar opposite as he see's himself. This is the way he gains and maintains superiority. Once the NSS's turn against him and rebel against their prescribed role, the narcissist sees this as the ultimate resistance to his superiority. The narcissist will then move on to find other NSS's to feed his need, to maintain his false reality of superiority, greatness, and uniqueness. Any resistors, will be deemed useless, in order to pacify the narcissist's failure for these “objects” and his once necessary use for them. All people are deemed “Objects” to the narcissist, and expendable when rendered combative to his ego. Grandiosity Compensation ensues.

”I thrive on project such as the one right here.”

”And to all the slimeballs out there...I advise them to remember that you should never get in a fight with someone who has nothing to lose. I now longer have anything to lose. So I will go after each and every one of the crooks and sickos with everything I've got. I would hate to lose my family and have little to show for it in the end.”

Standard Cease, Desist (and sometimes) Abate orders are issued here, to anyone and everyone who has ever crossed the path of this seemingly narcissistic man, and refused to placate him or feed his sickness.

The eyes and lies of Bill Windsor, the narcissist

Last week, while researching something I was going to write about Bill, I found a series of essays regarding narcissism that completely floored me. There was article after article that described nearly every aspect of Bill's personality. I shared the website with several people, and we all agreed that there were soo many interesting facets. Some of the articles were very dry and academic in tone, so as a group we set out to highlight some of the best points in our reading. The plan is to give Gingersnap the week off and let us delve into these topics from several different perspectives. 

This first post is from a writer who prefers to remain anonymous rather than face possible retaliation from Windsor. 

-OReader

The eyes of a narcissist who boasts about being part of a special 2% class of people
(poorly photoshopped by the narcissist himself)

Narcissists typically display most, and sometimes all, of the following traits and signs:

• An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges

During interpersonal communication there is message sending and message receiving. This can be conducted using both direct and indirect methods. Successful interpersonal communication is when the message senders and the message receivers understand the message. Bill Windsor’s communication is generally one-sided, and in his world, cannot be disputed. He spouts out whatever message he decides upon, no matter how outrageous. He does NOT want anyone to return a comment unless they 100% agree with him. If he gets any “Atta boys”, he gets as giddy as a child, but if anyone voices even mild disagreement with him, Bill Windsor generally attacks them, adds them to his growing list of people he falsely accuses of stalking him, files suit against them, then sets out to stalk them online and in person--often driving thousands of miles and spending thousands of dollars to do so. 

• Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships

Bill Windsor appears to have (perhaps zero) real-life friends. When he refers to “friends”, he is generally referring to someone he met online, yet has barely communicated with—or, occasionally, he refers to some friend he hasn’t seen in years, or decades, who he claims to have worked with during one of his many other failed business ventures. Additionally, his wife of 42-years has divorced him, he is prohibited from any and all contact with his grandchildren, and he is even prohibited from speaking about his now-ex family members in ANY medium--but he does it anyway, and often.

• A lack of psychological awareness

Bill Windsor appears to lack even the pretense of an aim beyond conscious desire. He lives in the grip of symbolic physical urges, and is absent of the capacity for self-examination, self-observation and introspection. Absent too is his ability to recognize the links between current problems within himself and with others.

• Difficulty with empathy

Bill Windsor has demonstrated this hundreds if not thousands of times. Many people have begged him for help in emails, on his facebook walls, during his online “radio shows”, and he either completely ignores them, or, when he can’t get away with ignoring them, he tells them that ‘now is not the time to talk about their personal stories’. In other words, if it isn’t about HIM, whether it be attention or empathy for his self-manufactured problems, he could not care a less.

• Problems distinguishing the self from others

Bill Windor often refers to himself in first-person and third-person in the same short post—as well as sometimes adding “Lawless America” as if it something other than a name for a now miserably failing “movement” he created. Here is a recent example from a post on one of his hate.com sites:

“This sick bastard, Xxxx Xxxxxxx, continues to cyberstalk and harass Bill Windsor.  Here’s his latest email.  I think this is about five from him in the last 24 hours.  he is impersonating me in his email name.” 

• Hypersensitivity to any insults, real or imagined

The most simple question or comment made in response to Bill Windsor, or about him, is met with righteous self defense, and when that doesn’t satisfy him, he does things like search the internet for photos of those who he falsely claims to be stalking him, and, for example, when finding a photo of one of them on a hunting trip, Bill Windsor then shouts from virtual rooftops that his stalker is a “killer”, and is loaded with “killing tools”, and intends to use them to kill Bill Windsor.

• Haughty body language

One example of many of Bill Windsor exhibiting this behavior can be found here - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ68Za_LEGo. Bill Windsor is pompous and self-absorbed, and it shows in everything he does. 

• Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply)

The few people who still “follow” Bill Windsor, and who offer praise and kudos to him, are met with flattering responses from him, where he attempts to reel them in even further into his charade. He needs people to praise him, to worship him, as much as he needs oxygen.

• Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse)

He not only detests people who don’t admire him, but he so detests them that he’ll go to great lengths to try to exact revenge on them by falsely accusing them of wanting to (and trying to) kill him, stalk him, ruin him, take away his family, etc.

• Using other people without considering the cost of doing so

How many people has Bill Windsor gathered as “followers”, only to discard them when he deems them non-valuable to his self-serving mission? How many has he recruited as volunteers? He cares not about them, or the problems they have faced which ultimately led them to him--and he certainly doesn’t care what happens to them after he discards them.

• Pretending to be more important than they really are/bragging and exaggerating their achievements

Much of Bill Windsor’s auto-biography has been debunked as fiction on this blog and elsewhere. He is NOT the “Grandfather” of the apparel-printing industry. He did NOT publish a book. He has NOT managed large companies. He appears to have lost every lawsuit he filed or had filed against him which made it to the courts (dozens of them). He failed at two runs for elected office. His self-proclaimed “founding” of “The Revolutionary Party” was a complete failure. His ‘founding’ of the cult-like group he calls Lawless America has bombed. And as of recent, Bill Windsor has become obsessed with his own green eyes, touting that it makes him special, as he’s a member of a 2% class. Yet Bill Windsor demands to be recognized as superior and special.

• Claiming to be an "expert" at many things

Bill Windsor professes to be an expert at Judicial Corruption, Grand Juries, Journalism, Movie Production, and so much more. He is not, by any stretch of the imagination an expert at anything—except, unfortunately, avoiding being punished for the harm he intentionally causes others.

• Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people

It is estimated that 1-6% of the general population suffers from Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Thankfully that leaves 94-99% of the general population living in somewhat harmony, with joy, hope, love and promise in their lives, and Bill? Well, he has a jeep, some electronics, a hidden bank-roll, and a growing list of people he wants to destroy.

Open Thread

Let's honor Trish better and move over here.

Please be respectful of the last post. We can have a new topic in the morning. (That is if Ginger doesn't murder me.)

If you are missing a comment on the last post, I may have house cleaned you.  I am all for open discussion and debate. I can even handle when it gets heated, but people looking for an obituary are finding the blog.

Can we please move unrelated comments here?

Thank you!

-OReader

Final Thoughts. . .

On July 27, 2013 Trish Kraus posted a facebook message that included a link to a youtube video entitled "I am not the ineffective communicator here..." I agree, she communicated with chilling effectiveness. I've done my best to transcribe the audio into written form. I am not going to add any commentary, but I feel it's really important to share Trish's own voice and consider the environment that no doubt largely contributed to her mental health. -OReader

Where do we go from here? I have always been the person that has accepted change with ease, with the exception our relationship. The die has been cast moving forward. It is difficult to follow which road to turn on to in our life's journey. We have always moved forward - always focused on looking back at where we are now where we have been. We are completely detached from one another emotionally, mentally, and physically. Where does this lead us?

By all means, it is not your fault. I place 100% of the blame on myself. I am sure you would agree with me on this one. Perhaps I have designed my life to fail, or even set myself up for failure. And, I suppose it is also my fault for your failures.  Emotionally we don't connect. We get by for the sake of getting by. It is something we have slowly grown accustomed with. Perhaps our platonic comfort is part of the problem. I can't say that we've grown apart because we don't know what that is. I guess after spending 35 years with someone, is this normal? For us, yes, our only answer. Sad, in ways, I suppose. On the other hand, is it pathetic? I guess we lean toward the comforts of not being alone. This is too difficult for us along this tipping point.

I reluctantly admit, as you know, that we have been at this crossroad before. I know our current situation will not sustain going forward due to my prior crossroad. Was it cancer that kept us together? Your sympathy for me being sick and me as one epic failure as a partner to you - but is it my fault? I don't think either of us have the skill set to determine that, and most likely never will. Mentally, we have been detached for years. In our long-term relationship, we attempt to blend into one, which is what we're supposed to do I guess. Whether either one of us want to admit it, it is who we are. We have common interests, friends, but not our dispositions. I know that I am the person to blame for everything because it has always worked out best this way. You have always supported me in my too many epic failures while reaching for the brass ring, as I for you in the early days of being a business owner.

Where does this leave us today? I think neither of us knows. It's odd how our children are getting to that place while we are getting further and further away from it. This sucks for both of us, big time. Can the deck be reshuffled and stamped in our favor again? I don't know, and I'm sure you don't either. Physically the disconnect has been there for too many years to count. I know physically it will be four years in October. Yes, I have been counting. I am sure you have been too. It has been twice in seven years, maybe three. Totally, almost ten years we are fooling ourselves if we consider this a successful relationship, on so many levels. I would consider my hysterectomy and the removal of the cervix as a huger complication to an already tarnished physical relationship. However, it was long before which even complicated it even further, maybe even was the last straw for you.

I don't have to tell you that I have always tried to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I've came to the realization that it just does not fit. I will never stop smoking being so closely connected to so many smokers. I guess I'm okay with that. I get the sense as if we both can't die fast enough in an effort to just end our misery. Yes, I did say both. Perhaps my spirit has been the biggest demon of my life that has affected yours as well. We can't say we've grown apart because we have never been apart.

To answer the thoughts going round in your head, no, there isn't someone or something else. We have a huge disconnect that I don't think either of us know how to correct, or anyone else for that matter. You will always be successful and have security. You are very capable of finding undamaged goods, unlike myself. Perhaps I've just held you back from finding that person - someone that has job stability, looks, pension, and a comfortable financial situation. That is something that I have never been able to provide to you or our family. I do have to say we have designed our lives this way. As a result, there is great uncertainty in my future. Finding someone is just not an option. The last thing I would want to do is fuck someone's life up as much as I have yours.  The pain of you providing someone else with these emotional, physical, and mental comforts is something that I cannot bear because we have been without the basic needs for so long.

I was writing this in hopes to find the answer to these burning issues that are only getting worse. We have been missing these three basic needs for so long makes me feel that we are destined to fail. Having these basic human needs taken away slowly only brings me to one conclusion. Where do we go from here? Because mentally, physically, and now ending the emotional need, we are two people living the same life in completely different parallels. Where do we go from here? Sigh.  We both know we love each other but know it is a different kind of love that we have just got comfortable with. I am lost.

You are the greatest man I will ever know in my life hands down. No one can take that away from either of us. Perhaps you may want and can settle in as a spectator. This could be a bumpy right which is OK due to our past history of being detached in a long-term relationship. With our complete lack of the basic elements of the human need. I really do not know where life is going to take me. But in the same sense is it the same disconnect and has lead me to where I am now by not really fulfilling my own basic need, but substituting it vicariously by fulfilling others we have never been able to talk about what is in my heart and soul. Perhaps because there is too much pain that has been inside. As I said, I am damaged goods, now only really now realizing as I write this, feeling now that I have put into words, something that I have been unable to for so long is one of the hardest things in my life.  We are at the tipping point but must move forward. Perhaps I should go kicking and screaming to God's country out West to find what is that life has in store for you, our future, and me.