Tuesday, August 20, 2013

The eyes and lies of Bill Windsor, the narcissist

Last week, while researching something I was going to write about Bill, I found a series of essays regarding narcissism that completely floored me. There was article after article that described nearly every aspect of Bill's personality. I shared the website with several people, and we all agreed that there were soo many interesting facets. Some of the articles were very dry and academic in tone, so as a group we set out to highlight some of the best points in our reading. The plan is to give Gingersnap the week off and let us delve into these topics from several different perspectives. 

This first post is from a writer who prefers to remain anonymous rather than face possible retaliation from Windsor. 
-OReader


The eyes of a narcissist who boasts about being part of a special 2% class of people
(poorly photoshopped by the narcissist himself)

Narcissists typically display most, and sometimes all, of the following traits and signs:

  • An obvious self-focus in interpersonal exchanges
During interpersonal communication there is message sending and message receiving. This can be conducted using both direct and indirect methods. Successful interpersonal communication is when the message senders and the message receivers understand the message. Bill Windsor’s communication is generally one-sided, and in his world, cannot be disputed. He spouts out whatever message he decides upon, no matter how outrageous. He does NOT want anyone to return a comment unless they 100% agree with him. If he gets any “Atta boys”, he gets as giddy as a child, but if anyone voices even mild disagreement with him, Bill Windsor generally attacks them, adds them to his growing list of people he falsely accuses of stalking him, files suit against them, then sets out to stalk them online and in person--often driving thousands of miles and spending thousands of dollars to do so. 
  • Problems in sustaining satisfying relationships
Bill Windsor appears to have (perhaps zero) real-life friends. When he refers to “friends”, he is generally referring to someone he met online, yet has barely communicated with—or, occasionally, he refers to some friend he hasn’t seen in years, or decades, who he claims to have worked with during one of his many other failed business ventures. Additionally, his wife of 42-years has divorced him, he is prohibited from any and all contact with his grandchildren, and he is even prohibited from speaking about his now-ex family members in ANY medium--but he does it anyway, and often.
  • A lack of psychological awareness
Bill Windsor appears to lack even the pretense of an aim beyond conscious desire. He lives in the grip of symbolic physical urges, and is absent of the capacity for self-examination, self-observation and introspection. Absent too is his ability to recognize the links between current problems within himself and with others.
  • Difficulty with empathy
Bill Windsor has demonstrated this hundreds if not thousands of times. Many people have begged him for help in emails, on his facebook walls, during his online “radio shows”, and he either completely ignores them, or, when he can’t get away with ignoring them, he tells them that ‘now is not the time to talk about their personal stories’. In other words, if it isn’t about HIM, whether it be attention or empathy for his self-manufactured problems, he could not care a less.
  • Problems distinguishing the self from others
Bill Windor often refers to himself in first-person and third-person in the same short post—as well as sometimes adding “Lawless America” as if it something other than a name for a now miserably failing “movement” he created. Here is a recent example from a post on one of his hate.com sites:
“This sick bastard, Xxxx Xxxxxxx, continues to cyberstalk and harass Bill Windsor.  Here’s his latest email.  I think this is about five from him in the last 24 hours.  he is impersonating me in his email name.” 
  • Hypersensitivity to any insults, real or imagined
The most simple question or comment made in response to Bill Windsor, or about him, is met with righteous self defense, and when that doesn’t satisfy him, he does things like search the internet for photos of those who he falsely claims to be stalking him, and, for example, when finding a photo of one of them on a hunting trip, Bill Windsor then shouts from virtual rooftops that his stalker is a “killer”, and is loaded with “killing tools”, and intends to use them to kill Bill Windsor.
  • Haughty body language
One example of many of Bill Windsor exhibiting this behavior can be found here - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQ68Za_LEGo. Bill Windsor is pompous and self-absorbed, and it shows in everything he does. 
  • Flattery towards people who admire and affirm them (narcissistic supply)
The few people who still “follow” Bill Windsor, and who offer praise and kudos to him, are met with flattering responses from him, where he attempts to reel them in even further into his charade. He needs people to praise him, to worship him, as much as he needs oxygen.
  • Detesting those who do not admire them (narcissistic abuse)
He not only detests people who don’t admire him, but he so detests them that he’ll go to great lengths to try to exact revenge on them by falsely accusing them of wanting to (and trying to) kill him, stalk him, ruin him, take away his family, etc.
  • Using other people without considering the cost of doing so
How many people has Bill Windsor gathered as “followers”, only to discard them when he deems them non-valuable to his self-serving mission? How many has he recruited as volunteers? He cares not about them, or the problems they have faced which ultimately led them to him--and he certainly doesn’t care what happens to them after he discards them.
  • Pretending to be more important than they really are/bragging and exaggerating their achievements
Much of Bill Windsor’s auto-biography has been debunked as fiction on this blog and elsewhere. He is NOT the “Grandfather” of the apparel-printing industry. He did NOT publish a book. He has NOT managed large companies. He appears to have lost every lawsuit he filed or had filed against him which made it to the courts (dozens of them). He failed at two runs for elected office. His self-proclaimed “founding” of “The Revolutionary Party” was a complete failure. His ‘founding’ of the cult-like group he calls Lawless America has bombed. And as of recent, Bill Windsor has become obsessed with his own green eyes, touting that it makes him special, as he’s a member of a 2% class. Yet Bill Windsor demands to be recognized as superior and special.
  • Claiming to be an "expert" at many things
Bill Windsor professes to be an expert at Judicial Corruption, Grand Juries, Journalism, Movie Production, and so much more. He is not, by any stretch of the imagination an expert at anything—except, unfortunately, avoiding being punished for the harm he intentionally causes others.
  • Inability to view the world from the perspective of other people
It is estimated that 1-6% of the general population suffers from Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Thankfully that leaves 94-99% of the general population living in somewhat harmony, with joy, hope, love and promise in their lives, and Bill? Well, he has a jeep, some electronics, a hidden bank-roll, and a growing list of people he wants to destroy.

Open Thread

Let's honor Trish better and move over here.




Please be respectful of the last post. We can have a new topic in the morning. (That is if Ginger doesn't murder me.)

If you are missing a comment on the last post, I may have house cleaned you.  I am all for open discussion and debate. I can even handle when it gets heated, but people looking for an obituary are finding the blog.

Can we please move unrelated comments here?

Thank you!

-OReader

Sunday, August 18, 2013

Final Thoughts. . .


On July 27, 2013 Trish Kraus posted a facebook message that included a link to a youtube video entitled "I am not the ineffective communicator here..." I agree, she communicated with chilling effectiveness. I've done my best to transcribe the audio into written form. I am not going to add any commentary, but I feel it's really important to share Trish's own voice and consider the environment that no doubt largely contributed to her mental health. -OReader


Where do we go from here? I have always been the person that has accepted change with ease, with the exception our relationship. The die has been cast moving forward. It is difficult to follow which road to turn on to in our life's journey. We have always moved forward - always focused on looking back at where we are now where we have been. We are completely detached from one another emotionally, mentally, and physically. Where does this lead us?

By all means, it is not your fault. I place 100% of the blame on myself. I am sure you would agree with me on this one. Perhaps I have designed my life to fail, or even set myself up for failure. And, I suppose it is also my fault for your failures.  Emotionally we don't connect. We get by for the sake of getting by. It is something we have slowly grown accustomed with. Perhaps our platonic comfort is part of the problem. I can't say that we've grown apart because we don't know what that is. I guess after spending 35 years with someone, is this normal? For us, yes, our only answer. Sad, in ways, I suppose. On the other hand, is it pathetic? I guess we lean toward the comforts of not being alone. This is too difficult for us along this tipping point.

I reluctantly admit, as you know, that we have been at this crossroad before. I know our current situation will not sustain going forward due to my prior crossroad. Was it cancer that kept us together? Your sympathy for me being sick and me as one epic failure as a partner to you - but is it my fault? I don't think either of us have the skill set to determine that, and most likely never will. Mentally, we have been detached for years. In our long-term relationship, we attempt to blend into one, which is what we're supposed to do I guess. Whether either one of us want to admit it, it is who we are. We have common interests, friends, but not our dispositions. I know that I am the person to blame for everything because it has always worked out best this way. You have always supported me in my too many epic failures while reaching for the brass ring, as I for you in the early days of being a business owner.

Where does this leave us today? I think neither of us knows. It's odd how our children are getting to that place while we are getting further and further away from it. This sucks for both of us, big time. Can the deck be reshuffled and stamped in our favor again? I don't know, and I'm sure you don't either. Physically the disconnect has been there for too many years to count. I know physically it will be four years in October. Yes, I have been counting. I am sure you have been too. It has been twice in seven years, maybe three. Totally, almost ten years we are fooling ourselves if we consider this a successful relationship, on so many levels. I would consider my hysterectomy and the removal of the cervix as a huger complication to an already tarnished physical relationship. However, it was long before which even complicated it even further, maybe even was the last straw for you.

I don't have to tell you that I have always tried to maintain a healthy lifestyle. I've came to the realization that it just does not fit. I will never stop smoking being so closely connected to so many smokers. I guess I'm okay with that. I get the sense as if we both can't die fast enough in an effort to just end our misery. Yes, I did say both. Perhaps my spirit has been the biggest demon of my life that has affected yours as well. We can't say we've grown apart because we have never been apart.

To answer the thoughts going round in your head, no, there isn't someone or something else. We have a huge disconnect that I don't think either of us know how to correct, or anyone else for that matter. You will always be successful and have security. You are very capable of finding undamaged goods, unlike myself. Perhaps I've just held you back from finding that person - someone that has job stability, looks, pension, and a comfortable financial situation. That is something that I have never been able to provide to you or our family. I do have to say we have designed our lives this way. As a result, there is great uncertainty in my future. Finding someone is just not an option. The last thing I would want to do is fuck someone's life up as much as I have yours.  The pain of you providing someone else with these emotional, physical, and mental comforts is something that I cannot bear because we have been without the basic needs for so long.

I was writing this in hopes to find the answer to these burning issues that are only getting worse. We have been missing these three basic needs for so long makes me feel that we are destined to fail. Having these basic human needs taken away slowly only brings me to one conclusion. Where do we go from here? Because mentally, physically, and now ending the emotional need, we are two people living the same life in completely different parallels. Where do we go from here? Sigh.  We both know we love each other but know it is a different kind of love that we have just got comfortable with. I am lost.

You are the greatest man I will ever know in my life hands down. No one can take that away from either of us. Perhaps you may want and can settle in as a spectator. This could be a bumpy right which is OK due to our past history of being detached in a long-term relationship. With our complete lack of the basic elements of the human need. I really do not know where life is going to take me. But in the same sense is it the same disconnect and has lead me to where I am now by not really fulfilling my own basic need, but substituting it vicariously by fulfilling others we have never been able to talk about what is in my heart and soul. Perhaps because there is too much pain that has been inside. As I said, I am damaged goods, now only really now realizing as I write this, feeling now that I have put into words, something that I have been unable to for so long is one of the hardest things in my life.  We are at the tipping point but must move forward. Perhaps I should go kicking and screaming to God's country out West to find what is that life has in store for you, our future, and me.

Saturday, August 17, 2013

RIP Trish Kraus


As I have spotlighted him for quite a while as Bill's number two domestic terrorist, David Schied leaves pain and suffering to those he leaves behind.  His ex-wife, who reportedly has a learning disability, was left to fend for herself with her son as she lives out of her van.  That was the woman that David "became married to with a child".  Then he leaves her and shacks up with Trish Kraus as we saw them both show up in Missouri to support Bill on his terroristic endeavors against Allie.  So what happened with Trish and David?  Well, this is how they are spinning it at Lawless:

"Marty Prehnposted toBill Windsor 8 minutes ago Bill it is with a very heavy heart that I am sharing with you and our LAWLESS AMERICA family that on Friday August 16, 2013 that our dear friend Trish Kraus died unexpectly and is now in heaven. Please contact me at my cell number and I can share with you more. This has been confirmed by David Schied in a phone call I recieved from him an hour or so ago. When funeral arrangements are made I will see that they are posted so that those in Michigan can attend and say their good bye's to a very courageous woman who took on many battles in her lifetime and won. This one she did not. There is only so much a heart can take before it breaks as was the case here. REST IN PEACE Trish Kraus. Trish was 50 years old. She was the driving force behind LAWLESS AMERICA in Michigan."

But well before that was posted we had this posted on the blog which I believe is very much credible from the second it was posted.  I had emailed with Trish's daughter back in June where she was concerned for her mother and worried that David was causing her great pain and alienation from everyone (much like a cult).  I think its important that the world hears this as it relates to David, again this is just what was posted:


I live long a distance from my mom trish and all of my family. So as i sit at the computer typing to the people i need to notify, i see the link on my desktop to this webpage. i figured id update you. dave and my mother are no longer together. he tried to control her life. he didnt want her working. he was keeping mail from her. he even held her dog hostage for approximately a week. they are no longer together and she is no longer a part of lawless. she committed suicide today :'( she was very mentally ill. because of david, she alienated her whole family. he convinced her we were all the enemy (there are email messages between them to prove this). when she could no longer be with him because of his controlling ways, she ended up with no one. and now she is lost to us forever. i blame her mental illness first, she wouldnt get help. i blame david second. he is why she thought her family was the enemy. i dont think you will ever hear from me again. there is no need for me to be here.

Friday, August 16, 2013

He Came, He Saw, He Squandered



   
So its now been over a week in Missoula Montana, and Bill has still not be able to get noticed.  Really, the only thing he can brag about at this point is that a Justice of the Peace threw his wadded up paper at him. Sean Boushie is still employed with the University of Montana.  He is still married and with his wife, unlike Bill.  There are no criminal charges out against Sean and it seems Bill still can't even get a judge...any judge to give him a protective order against Sean.

Things are really getting bad for Bill.  His room is piling up in his own filth (usually he leaves by now so he never has to notice just a slob he really is).  He is tired of wearing his kevlar vest....he can't seem to get anyone on campus to care that he is holding a camera.  Yeah, he doesn't much like Montana but he can't seem to leave until he can get a feather in his faded out cap.  Bill has now resorted to touring all the adult book stores to see if they know or have seen Boushie.  Given his proclivity to sexual deviancy, I would image that he will end up visiting all the adult book stores in that entire region for his "research".